In With The New

 

 

 

I’ve come to a fork in the road. I can either keep trying to do what I’ve (unsuccessfully) done for fear of offending anyone, or I can move in the direction that sparked this whole thing in the first place. With that being said…. Things are going to change a bit around here. They are just a few things:

1. Swearing

I am no longer going to stop swearing on my site just because it’s public and my family has the potential to all see it. It’s my site and the whole point behind it is that I can come out with whatever I want, when I want. You never what to expect from my posts, unless I am doing a series. I don’t stick to just one topic. My blog isn’t necessarily a destination blog where you can find all things in just one subject. Although, that’s why Category lists were created.

I don’t have crazy shit on my blog. No flashy banners or sales with jewelry or eBooks (although maybe one day). Just words and posts, some with pictures, some without. I am in the middle of creating some awesome stuff though on the side, so I will let you know about that when I do and then perhaps Planet Zynnia will have some sort of flashiness to it.

What I do have is sass. And a lot of it. That’s why I come here. To my WordPress safe haven. To educate, challenge, and get you uncomfortable. I am a shell-breaker and break shells I will. There is no growth inside of the comfort zone. I’m also known to drop an F-bomb or two, which is why, if you subscribe – you know what may come of it. This is your only warning though. If cussing makes you uncomfortable, this is your chance to back away. Of course it won’t be in every post and I will never use profanities in such a way that is demoralizing, demeaning, insulting, derogatory, and otherwise disrespectful.

My father always said that someone who swears a lot shows a lower sign of intelligence. I always loved that and I remember taking on a 30 Day Challenge back in 2012 of Not Swearing for 30 Days because I cussed like a sailor. I would be lying if I told you it didn’t work. Ever since that challenge, I have severely lowered my swearing and do my best to only cuss when necessary.

What is a swear word anyway, other than society’s level of shock at a word? I was told as a kid that ‘bastard’ is a swear word and ‘hell’ is a swear word. I mean, if the word ‘hate’ is so strong – should that be added into the swear word category? Because we could do this all day – pick out words that are and are not “politically correct” and just throw them into the mix. We could take any word that we find personally offensive and give it the “bad word” label. There are certainly a few words I consider swear words that I hear all the time. My idea of the F-word is said amongst people with a level of ignorance and apathy that severely angers and offends me, but I could say fuck anytime if I am in the right place.

I apologize now for all future posts that may offend you. I will always do my best to keep it respectful in a “WAKE THE FUCK UP” kind of way, but I’m not the type of person to beat around any bush or sugar coat any cupcakes. My mama never raised me like that and she always taught us to just give it to people straight because sometimes people need an unorthodox explanation.

That’s why I’m here. I am unconventional, unorthodox, and downright unpredictable. It’s my weakness and my strength I guess.

2. Timing of Posts

Okay let’s be honest. I have a dangerous habit of sucking at posting articles. I know. I know…. I have all of these awesome things to write about and for some reason, I just get a sense of overwhelmness? I’ve unnecessarily pressured myself to be a “super blogger” and ultimately let myself be held back by that. That’s why I’m throwing everything I know out the window and I’m gonna let my expressions determine my site. I will do my best to post every week. Iam hoping to  not fall off the horse and will do whatever necessary to stay on. Afterall, I do love horse-back riding.

3. Categories

There are some new categories already, and more to be created. I’ve added “Health & Wellness” for all things medical/alternative medicine/self-care/FAQ’s for all of your self-educating needs. I get a lot of common questions from clients and people in general about their bodies and why our bodies do what they do, why we need water, why we need to stretch, and benefits of Massage, Bodywork, and general health knowledge. (There are no swear words in these articles – you’re good to go!)

I’ve also added “Wake Up America!” where I definitely might cuss and throw some gnarly facts in with resources and lots of eye-openers. These are the discussions that may or may not make you feel uncomfortable, but nonetheless show you the truth about anything I can to bring awareness in any way possible to remind us of what’s going on behind closed doors and how we can continue to strengthen our awareness, our independence, find justice, unite together, and stick up for our Truth, our neighbors, our Nation, and ourselves.

I’m bringing in a Canine Category for all things…. well… canines. Fun tips and tricks, educational pieces, delicious recipes, and resources to amazing and inspiring Canine Caretakers all over! Spotlights, Shout-outs; everything you need to get inside the mind of a dog and gain more confidence when trying to understand their language and what’s best for them to live a happy and healthy life.

I am also bringing in a Conspiracy Theory. It will be filled with my personal theories of wild nonsense I think about during meditations. Some may cool, some may be too outrageous to consider, and some may be really awful. But I think it’s interesting about theories, because there always seems to be some sort of truth to them in the end. So if I share them, I feel like I am living a sense of purpose that maybe I am not the only crazy one in the World who thinks the way I do. But I might be the only crazy one to let myself publically express it.

Ahh. Such is life. I am going dying as “the crazy one” – as long as I live my truth of expression for good integrity, I will take the label anyday.

4. Extra Pages (for the future)

This is something I am working on. I want to provide a page that shouts out to the people I admire and the cool shit they do. Authors, Bloggers, Designers, Companies that sell awesome products. I love blasting companies and people I love and I really want to create a page for just that. I am hoping this comes in the next few months, so I will continue working to my best ability to make this happen for you!

 

THAT’S ALL FOLKS!

Those are the only updates I have for now. I hope you’ve enjoyed my essay of explanations and thank you for being a subscriber to Planet Zynnia!

 

Deep Breathing Challenge, Day #14

It is Day 14 now: 

I am two weeks into my commitment to deep breathing for thirty full days. As you know, I took on this challenge to see if anything would positively impact my way of life. So far, I have yawned a whole bunch, my chronic hiccups have diminished, my Intercostals have been working out the knots in the muscles on their own, I have successfully gained control of my vocal pace, volume, thought output, and I have sweat a whole ton of toxins out of my body.

1. Sleeping

I would be lying if I said that I was good enough to consciously deep breathe while sleeping, and because I am already a vivid, tuned in, and lucid dreamer; I can’t really say that I am taking up awareness to my breathing depending on what I am dreaming about. I still twitch and move in my sleep, as well as make some weird faces. Sometimes I still wake up in a pool of sweat or my beau will hear me moaning and groaning like I’m having a deep conversation in my dreaming world, but what I have noticed about sleeping from my deep breathing is the length of time it takes me to go to sleep. It doesn’t take long. I have slept deep and thorough. Sometimes, too thorough to the point where I could and would spend all day sleeping if I didn’t have to get up for work and let me tell you, it feels soooo good when I wake up! Last night, I fell asleep watching a movie with Danny and woke up at 10:30pm telling him I was just preparing to take Zai out and feed her breakfast before I get ready for work. Realizing what time it really was, I was elated knowing that a) it was still nighttime and b) I could go back to sleep and finish enjoying the dream I had woken up from. The two hours I had slept had given me such deep and purified energy that I was ready for the day to begin, BEFORE IT EVEN HIT MIDNIGHT!! Everytime I fall asleep, I sleep deep. That’s not unusual for me. But the length of time it usually takes for me to fall asleep is almost an hour, if not more than that.

I have a weakness for insomnia. And when I am deep breathing all evening and after mindfully chewing my food and mindfully taking my dog out for her nighttime potty, I get to mindfully lay in bed and put my waking day to rest for seven hours of restful sleep.

2. Calm, Cool, and Collected

Now, before I get started – this isn’t to say that I don’t ever get mad about something I feel is an important conversation. Last Tuesday night, I lost my cool, completely. I was very passionate about my side of opinion on a touchy subject. I defended my end with no apologies. I cried a lot, and it took a couple days of almost complete silence, zero appetite for food, and no physical touching, for me to decide where exactly it was that I fit in this whole scheme of things. That being said, I unleashed every dark side of me. I had a “now or never” moment and knew that it was either then I would forgive every piece of my past, every mental and emotional fear I have, and everything I’ve ever held in; or I would sit with it forever, allowing the person I loved the most to never get a genuine chance to see why I lived the way I did and why certain things affect me as they do. The scariest part of being with someone is showing them every beautiful, whimsical, terrifying, ugly, wonderful, brave, and courageous piece of you.

Deep breathing has given me a chance prior and post that experience, to remain so calm, that Danny has asked me multiple times, if I am okay. Since I’m not talking fast and I’m not speaking loudly, and I’m not talking about every tiny insignificant detail on my mind, I am sitting with my thoughts (which, deep breath after another, seem to be little thanks to the natural filtering process my instincts have taken on). When I speak, it’s with the intention to have conversation or to communicate with meaning; instead of talking to hear the sound of my voice.

Being calm has given me a better understanding on the World and myself. Things that make shake my head that I have done in the past and hopeful reactions I will have in the future. My eyes have been opened to something so special. My life has been so full of loud noises, chaotic moments, for so long and it hasn’t been until these last 4 years of awakening and learning zen, peace, and meditation, that I have really honed myself in myself. 

Utilizing my newfound state of my mind, I am appreciating the observant side in myself. Talking less has given me the peace to be quiet. It has given me the respect and appreciation of what it means to be quiet. Not having an opinion on every bit of thing is freeing! I never knew it could be that way. Not sharing my experiences or memories when someone is trying to genuinely share something great about their lives is joyful and exciting and an eye opener. Realizing how rude I’ve probably been for so long. It’s enlightening and a beautiful change to accept from within. To listen is a beautiful gift. I don’t just know this now, but I truly appreciate this now. 
I hope you all have enjoyed my update for this week. Peace be with all of you!

Deep Breath In, Deep Breath Out

This past Friday evening, Danny and I came home to a record high, 88 degrees in our house. With humidity; that’s comparable to a sauna. We couldn’t escape the heat and only two windows in our apartment (out of six) open up. We decided it’s time. The air conditioner from the attic got brought down and set up in the living room. We couldn’t seem to get it filtering through the house fast enough for us to cool down. He took a cold shower and I took many deep breaths (as I normally do in the saunas and steam rooms to deal with the overwhelming heat and sweat factors).

After moving our mattress into the living room, we finally got a place of peace. Cool air and one super happy dog. Since we haven’t yet got a couch, we figured, why the hell not? I will tell you, it’s like living in a studio and I love the daily adventures Danny and I have together in this apartment. This being the newest one, inspired me on a new 30 Day Challenge.


Last night,  we were laughing and exhausted after dinner and cleaning up. We had some time to kill after we used the rest of our data to watch Orange Is the New Black: Season 3. That was when I suggested we geek out together: massage therapy style. I was so excited, I jumped to the bookshelf and grabbed my anatomy book and started flipping through it.

“Name me all the Deep Hip Rotators from Superior to Inferior!” I said, and when he would get stuck, we would go through the analogies together. “Go Go P Quick! What’s it stand for?!” and there was “Name me Two Majors & A Miss!” “Where is it at?!” “YEAH!!!”

SO MUCH FUN! Geeking out with your boyfriend when you both know what you’re talking about, is about as fun as going to an amusement park with no lines for the rides; in my opinion. We went on like that for about an hour and laughing so hard.


He started talking to me about yawning and deep breathing versus shallow breathing. I was intrigued about everything he had to say about the topic and realized, other than in meditation, when do people breathe deeply? And if we made a conscious effort to deep breathe every waking moment, what kinds of positive changes would we manifest in our reality? Would it change anything at all?

“I’m going to find out..” I said, “I am going to do a 30 day challenge and I’m going to breathe deeply for thirty days, as consciously as possible no matter what it is I’m doing and I am going to see how it affects my life in any area.”


So here we are, Day #1:

So far, the only thing I have noticed is that I am yawning a ton. When you go from shallow breathing, to deep breathing, you are in-taking more air than is recognizable for your body to sort through. There is so much oxygen to process it becomes overwhelming to the vessel and results in a yawn. This is why, when most of us do yoga or meditations, we feel ourselves yawning when we are breathing and becoming fully aware of our body.

Lots and lots of yawns.

I will admit it is a challenge to keep mindful of deep breaths during talking, walking, cooking, driving, or singing….. things we literally never think about breathing with. Sometimes I will forget and catch myself moments later suddenly wondering, “Oh wow, have I even been breathing this whole time?” and quickly realizing, it’s a learning system. I am essentially teaching an old dog new tricks. Redesigning my lungs, their capacity, and my diaphragm.

Can these get sore, like working out makes our other muscles sore? Hmm… food for thought.

Until the next update, I’m Zynnia. And I hope you all have a great day! 🙂