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I’m having revelation after revelation it seems since starting my last term at school. The middle three and fourth terms you really do get burned out. At least for our criteria. We are the graduating class EM1012,

We are the fearless class who spoke up and spoke loud and have made an impact that will forever last on the school.

I think my problem is that I have just taken a fake effect on everything in life. For some reason, a visual part of my life just seems to have a weird effect in my life now. The past comes back. I notice it more when I’m high with Lion.  I feel bad when I get to that point where I usually spend that “high time” by myself. And we do everything together. We both miss our alone time, and it’s fair that we both get that. We are just people.

I don’t think I have daddy issues at all. In fact, I have seldom issues with my father. But I am the part of him that I enjoy the most. He is my total opposite, and yet one of my favorite like-people in this World.

I know the person who holds my demons. Who stole me of my innocence.

You hear all the time that nobody has fears. “Oh, I’ve seen everything!” they shout, “I have no fears! ! There is nothing to fear in this World because man can do everything. We are forces able to connect with any flowing thing..”, and though that may be true, we can’t do everything all of the time and take on a Superwoman act without rest, without time alone. Burnt out and stressed out. Overloaded and unhappy. Rage and Creepy auras. Vasodialation and heated up with blood flowing. Exchanging energy to sustain the goal in mind. Which is to write! Write however it comes out, because sometimes this feels so much better then crying. Sometimes I just don’t have it in me. I feel horrible because Lion always thinks it’s about him and like he is the only thing that makes me unhappy. But he really doesn’t know about any other of my other stresses. I mainly don’t tell him my stresses or bad news. I don’t want him to stress out about me. I stress him out enough. I feel like an ugly person. Inside and out, ironically! Hahahaha!  I have always wondered if that manifests itself into our literal shape. Mental issues taking a shape onto your body.

I am sitting in the bedroom while my babs is out on the couch. I feel like he thinks these are moments where he can’t do anything. And it sucks, because I don’t know how to show him that I don’t care what he does in his personal life without him thinking that I’m being cynical or cunty. Because, I have a sick tendency to be pretty cunty. I say all sorts of things with my imaginative mind. I just let it flow out, as if I’m opening my subconscious, Of course, I strive to open to my Pituitary Gland. I have been realizing what parts of me I have been neglecting, and the Pituitary Gland is the all mighty. The connection to Third Eye.

I feel like I can’t even control the eyes I have now. I have a problem looking in the center of everything. As I’m typing, I am actually focusing directly in front of me. I’m losing a bit of my sense of time although I still know what’s going on in my home. The computer with the music playing is slowing making its way towards me and the harmonies bear in the meditation.

Bathroom Break.

I can’t justify my personality flaws nor the flaws of other people. I can’t blame my mother or any other outside influence that has many any subconscious impact in my life. The bottom line is: it has.

Whether it was a good or bad experience, it has made an impression in my life. Whether I acknowledge it or not, these life influences sit at the foundation of every life choice I make. I could go on and on and dive into every specific issue and I could pour my heart to you openly. That might make me feel better, if we could get by with treating symptom issues.

I don’t like treating symptoms with my clients, so what makes me think I want to treat symptoms with myself? The goal here is to change the root cause!

What I have now is new-found reality. I will not confine myself to thinking errors such as “I am this way because,__________” because that’s juvenile. In the end, it’s our energetic force-field that has allowed for the influence and whatever influence has made its way, must have needed to get in for a reason. I myself have blossomed into a person unlike any other, which is a praise on its own, because that’s what we should do as humans! We have the opportunity, the encouragement above all to live our passions. Being ourselves is something not many people in this World know they can be, and yet, it’s our birth right. Stripped away from some of us at birth, from government, from abusive environments, from report cards, and societal failures. In reality, we are the only person able to stop us; if we allow someone else to do that job, we might as well already be half dead.

Influence. Impression. Impact.

So how do I, and other people in the same type of situation, deal with this?

We acknowledge it. We accept it. We change it.
But how do we change it?

By developing new thinking habits. It’s the one controllable change we have upon ourselves. We read and write all the time lists and explanations of ways to improve our happiness, our general emotional state, and our mental clarity. Be positive. Change your realm of people. Take a Me Day. Create a Gratitude Journal. Try this, try that, and let me tell you how to live a happier life in less than 100 ways.

That’s not reality though, because not everybody has the same motivation or change rate. Not everyone’s problems come from their friends or jobs. Not everyone wants to give up their inner circle in order to have a peace of mind. Not everybody has to write in a gratitude journal to make their prayers validated. Again, all that does is fix the symptoms. So when the unhappiness creeps back in, it’s back to the drawing board.

The only thing we need to do when it comes to looking for change is our thought process. It’s the one aspect that drives every action, every perceptional view, every choice and emotion and reason for what we do. If we don’t think we sit. Our brain doesn’t know what else to do other than go with the flow. By re-training our thought patterns, we can project a better outcome for ourselves.

I’m not a scientist or psychologist. I can’t tell you ways on how to change your thought process, because I don’t know where your issues stem from. I also don’t have all the time in the World to hear about them as much as you don’t have all the time in the World to talk about them. And that’s okay. It’s not inhumane of me to not want to hear about it. You don’t know me from Eve, so why should you bear your innermost problems to me by way of verbal information?

I am a Professional Massage Therapist. A holistic body worker and firm believer in the connection with our Physical and Energetic bodies. Everyday I get to work with someone new and help facilitate the healing process for them to get back to their optimal level of health, by bringing them back in alignment with the gravitational pull and balancing out the energies and emotions that are inside. I get to communicate with bodies everyday and learn something new from someone. It’s truly a blessing what I do and I hope to do it my entire life.

You can’t fix your physical problems without fixing your energetic problems and vice versa. You can’t recognize your issues and continue to write a rain check on them in the hopes you will still progress. And you wonder why you’re not changing….

For me, I change my thought process by forcing positive thoughts my way if in the event they are in deep hiding. I fake it to make it sometimes. I am only human and it’s impossible to be consistently happy all of the time. We need down sides to even us out. We need a flushing of emotions to keep us in check that, hey! We’re humans. It’s what we do.

By becoming better in touch with ourselves and who we are, we need to make that connection solid between heart and mind. We need to listen to our bodies when it tells us something. We need not to fight the releasement our bodies crave. Our bodies need the releasement and would fulfill it’s craving if we didn’t let our pride and mind control get in the way. We have a right to live free of dis-ease. We have a right to bury our burdens and set the grave on fire.


We have a right to shine and grow and fulfill our passionate destinies.

It’s our birthright, to burn like Wildfire.

Just Do It.

We have all seen their shirts and heard the words.
But how many of us have really thought about the message that Nike is telling us? When you hear the famous phrase, “JUST DO IT” what do you think about? 

I have personally taken this phrase into every action of my daily life.

When I don’t want to wake up in the mornings, just do it.
When I am dreading the many errands I have to run on my bicycle in the middle of the afternoon, just do it. 
When I think about exercising, just do it. 
And especially when I start a project I’m proud of and other people have a negative opinion on it. I JUST DO IT.

There will always be someone down your path of success who will tell you that your dream isn’t good enough. That you won’t accomplish it. They will tear you down as much as possible. Their negativity will come into your world if you let it. A negative influence from somebody else is enough to stop you in your tracks from getting what you what out of life. You can’t runaway from them, but you can prevent more from coming in your life.

Sometimes your dreams may be out of this world. Inventing something no one has thought of before, starting up a company of old collections, or even just having a goat farm. It can be anything! But if it’s important to you NOBODY should have the influence to stop you.

I read a post the other day from TheChangeBlog.com of 11 Habits of Highly Successful Dreamers. The number 10 habit was “Successful dreamers seek out healthy support from others.” If you think you know what I am about to tell you, you might be right.

It’s time to cut the fat.

If you have negativity surrounding you and your bright, innovative ideas; you need to get rid of the negativity. You need to stand up and say, “Hey! This is my dream and if you have nothing encouraging to say about it, you can take your negativity somewhere else.”
Sometimes, you just need to stick it to the man!

Sometimes, we will fail. If that happens, we just pick ourselves up and try again. We take that as a learning curve, something to build on and improve on. We don’t fail from fear. That is where I draw the line. We don’t let the other person win and bring us down with them. That is just unacceptable. You need to remember that it’s not your fault if the person bringing you down is not accomplishing what they set out for. It’s not your fault that they are not working towards their dream or progressing in their life. That is not your fault and you should not be held accountable.

“Your dream is lame.”
“Nobody will come to your event.”
“That’s a stupid idea, you shouldn’t do it.”
“You are wasting your time.”


You deserve your dream. You deserve the excitement it brings you and the payoff from the hard work. You deserve being around the people who cheer you on and raise you higher for it. You deserve people believing in your dream as much as you do.

So take a seat and ask yourself some questions that maybe you haven’t confronted to yourself yet.

Am I getting the support I deserve from others?
Are there people around me giving me negative feedback?
Am I letting others influence the direction of my dreams and desires?
Am I letting fear get in my way on my path?

If the answers you’re getting aren’t the answers you were looking for, then you have exactly what you need. You need to go through and find where the negativity is coming from. Once you have pinpointed the negative surge, you need to pour water on it. Take it out. Let it go. And allow more positive energy to come into your life. Unless you take out the bad, there will be no room for the good to settle in comfortably.

Sometimes, you don’t want to tell that person, “Sayonara!”
You’re friends, you have history, but they haven’t exactly made you feel the best when it comes down to the heart-to-hearts. It’s clear you two are on different paths. You need to separate yourself from them and get around people who share a passion for success like you do. Successful Dreamers who are around other Successful Dreamers, together become Successful People. In the long run, getting rid of the negativity will make a big impact on you, almost immediately. The sun will be brighter, you will be happier, and your vision will become more real.

It can be hard to ignore someone’s influence. Don’t take this the wrong way though, make sure you know how they are putting their words. Sometimes, they can be giving you legitimate advice, forcing you to not get so caught up in the dream that you don’t look at both sides. Looking at both sides openly is a smart thing to do. You must analyze all your options and challenges you may face on your path. You must figure out how you will overcome these obstacles and give yourself the right option. That is a smart friend who is only looking out for you.

It’s the people who give no suggestion and no advice. It’s the people who laugh in your face. It’s the people who intentionally create the fear to stop you from gaining your happiness. There is no need to defend yourself to these people or give them any sort of explanation. You don’t owe it to them and it probably won’t change their opinion. You will want to give them the “I’ll show them” attitude. But you know what? Don’t even give them that.

Whatever your dream is, do it for yourself. Do it because it makes you excited to think about it. Do it because it ignites that fire inside of you. Do it because it will make you happy. Pump yourself up, encourage yourself and surround yourself with other encouraging, happy, driven people. Follow your dream no matter how crazy it is.

If it makes you happy and it’s important to you: JUST DO IT!