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Wildfire.

I’m having revelation after revelation it seems since starting my last term at school. The middle three and fourth terms you really do get burned out. At least for our criteria. We are the graduating class EM1012,

We are the fearless class who spoke up and spoke loud and have made an impact that will forever last on the school.

I think my problem is that I have just taken a fake effect on everything in life. For some reason, a visual part of my life just seems to have a weird effect in my life now. The past comes back. I notice it more when I’m high with Lion.  I feel bad when I get to that point where I usually spend that “high time” by myself. And we do everything together. We both miss our alone time, and it’s fair that we both get that. We are just people.

I don’t think I have daddy issues at all. In fact, I have seldom issues with my father. But I am the part of him that I enjoy the most. He is my total opposite, and yet one of my favorite like-people in this World.

I know the person who holds my demons. Who stole me of my innocence.

You hear all the time that nobody has fears. “Oh, I’ve seen everything!” they shout, “I have no fears! ! There is nothing to fear in this World because man can do everything. We are forces able to connect with any flowing thing..”, and though that may be true, we can’t do everything all of the time and take on a Superwoman act without rest, without time alone. Burnt out and stressed out. Overloaded and unhappy. Rage and Creepy auras. Vasodialation and heated up with blood flowing. Exchanging energy to sustain the goal in mind. Which is to write! Write however it comes out, because sometimes this feels so much better then crying. Sometimes I just don’t have it in me. I feel horrible because Lion always thinks it’s about him and like he is the only thing that makes me unhappy. But he really doesn’t know about any other of my other stresses. I mainly don’t tell him my stresses or bad news. I don’t want him to stress out about me. I stress him out enough. I feel like an ugly person. Inside and out, ironically! Hahahaha!  I have always wondered if that manifests itself into our literal shape. Mental issues taking a shape onto your body.

I am sitting in the bedroom while my babs is out on the couch. I feel like he thinks these are moments where he can’t do anything. And it sucks, because I don’t know how to show him that I don’t care what he does in his personal life without him thinking that I’m being cynical or cunty. Because, I have a sick tendency to be pretty cunty. I say all sorts of things with my imaginative mind. I just let it flow out, as if I’m opening my subconscious, Of course, I strive to open to my Pituitary Gland. I have been realizing what parts of me I have been neglecting, and the Pituitary Gland is the all mighty. The connection to Third Eye.

I feel like I can’t even control the eyes I have now. I have a problem looking in the center of everything. As I’m typing, I am actually focusing directly in front of me. I’m losing a bit of my sense of time although I still know what’s going on in my home. The computer with the music playing is slowing making its way towards me and the harmonies bear in the meditation.

Bathroom Break.

I can’t justify my personality flaws nor the flaws of other people. I can’t blame my mother or any other outside influence that has many any subconscious impact in my life. The bottom line is: it has.

Whether it was a good or bad experience, it has made an impression in my life. Whether I acknowledge it or not, these life influences sit at the foundation of every life choice I make. I could go on and on and dive into every specific issue and I could pour my heart to you openly. That might make me feel better, if we could get by with treating symptom issues.

I don’t like treating symptoms with my clients, so what makes me think I want to treat symptoms with myself? The goal here is to change the root cause!

What I have now is new-found reality. I will not confine myself to thinking errors such as “I am this way because,__________” because that’s juvenile. In the end, it’s our energetic force-field that has allowed for the influence and whatever influence has made its way, must have needed to get in for a reason. I myself have blossomed into a person unlike any other, which is a praise on its own, because that’s what we should do as humans! We have the opportunity, the encouragement above all to live our passions. Being ourselves is something not many people in this World know they can be, and yet, it’s our birth right. Stripped away from some of us at birth, from government, from abusive environments, from report cards, and societal failures. In reality, we are the only person able to stop us; if we allow someone else to do that job, we might as well already be half dead.

Influence. Impression. Impact.

So how do I, and other people in the same type of situation, deal with this?

We acknowledge it. We accept it. We change it.
But how do we change it?

By developing new thinking habits. It’s the one controllable change we have upon ourselves. We read and write all the time lists and explanations of ways to improve our happiness, our general emotional state, and our mental clarity. Be positive. Change your realm of people. Take a Me Day. Create a Gratitude Journal. Try this, try that, and let me tell you how to live a happier life in less than 100 ways.

That’s not reality though, because not everybody has the same motivation or change rate. Not everyone’s problems come from their friends or jobs. Not everyone wants to give up their inner circle in order to have a peace of mind. Not everybody has to write in a gratitude journal to make their prayers validated. Again, all that does is fix the symptoms. So when the unhappiness creeps back in, it’s back to the drawing board.

The only thing we need to do when it comes to looking for change is our thought process. It’s the one aspect that drives every action, every perceptional view, every choice and emotion and reason for what we do. If we don’t think we sit. Our brain doesn’t know what else to do other than go with the flow. By re-training our thought patterns, we can project a better outcome for ourselves.

I’m not a scientist or psychologist. I can’t tell you ways on how to change your thought process, because I don’t know where your issues stem from. I also don’t have all the time in the World to hear about them as much as you don’t have all the time in the World to talk about them. And that’s okay. It’s not inhumane of me to not want to hear about it. You don’t know me from Eve, so why should you bear your innermost problems to me by way of verbal information?

I am a Professional Massage Therapist. A holistic body worker and firm believer in the connection with our Physical and Energetic bodies. Everyday I get to work with someone new and help facilitate the healing process for them to get back to their optimal level of health, by bringing them back in alignment with the gravitational pull and balancing out the energies and emotions that are inside. I get to communicate with bodies everyday and learn something new from someone. It’s truly a blessing what I do and I hope to do it my entire life.

You can’t fix your physical problems without fixing your energetic problems and vice versa. You can’t recognize your issues and continue to write a rain check on them in the hopes you will still progress. And you wonder why you’re not changing….

For me, I change my thought process by forcing positive thoughts my way if in the event they are in deep hiding. I fake it to make it sometimes. I am only human and it’s impossible to be consistently happy all of the time. We need down sides to even us out. We need a flushing of emotions to keep us in check that, hey! We’re humans. It’s what we do.

By becoming better in touch with ourselves and who we are, we need to make that connection solid between heart and mind. We need to listen to our bodies when it tells us something. We need not to fight the releasement our bodies crave. Our bodies need the releasement and would fulfill it’s craving if we didn’t let our pride and mind control get in the way. We have a right to live free of dis-ease. We have a right to bury our burdens and set the grave on fire.

 

We have a right to shine and grow and fulfill our passionate destinies.

It’s our birthright, to burn like Wildfire.

“You’re Weird.”

Why do people have to call other people weird? Why do people have to insult other people by calling then lame or uncool?

Is that even a real trait to have? Or are the insulted the ones who are really afraid to go outside of the box and experience a new person? A new personality?

Everybody is different. People can be extremely similar and still be completely different and yet the one thing that stops us from separating ourselves from everyone else are differences.

It’s 2012 and people everyday still practice discrimination in one way or another. Whether it be by appearance or small characteristics, there’s always something that stops us from opening ourselves up to others.

It’s our fault we don’t have a good time in unknown situations.

We get preconceived notions of a situation before it happens ad sub consciously stop ourselves from smiling, probing, and cheering with new people.

because they are different from us.

Who are we to decide who is weird and who isn’t?

It’s not about who is “weird”, who is “a freak”, who is “normal” – its about who relates the most to us. Who we have the most in common with.

So why do we feel the need to act more profound than others? Why is it so crucial that we lift ourselves up in order to get ourselves a better sense of self?

Why can’t we all just get along?

Could you imagine how much better off the World would be if we celebrated each other’s differences?

Of course, this argument has been going on longer than I’ve been alive.

It’s human nature to be different and to associate with those closest to you.
It’s perfectly reasonable to leave a group with you realize there are more differences than similarities. We are naturally bonded to those who share interests, goals, and lifestyles with us and by no means should we have to forfeit that freedom.

If we didn’t have differences, we wouldn’t have wars followed by peace, debates and controversial discussions. Without differences, we wouldn’t have conversations, questions, and feedback. Differences give us the opportunity to teach others, express ourselves, and journey to something greater.

 

I know if someone looks at me while I am texting, writing, or listening to music, I am making all kinds of facial expressions. It’s something natural I do, because I can’t hold still when greatness is going on in my noggin. I hum when I am eating delicious food – it’s my compliment to the person(s) who made it. I also sing a lot of my words and use different accents when I speak.

So does that make me weird? Does that paint a label on my forehead as “FREAK”?

or does that make me different?

It’s what makes me, ME. It’s my personal touch to my own flavor. My own beat. My own dance. My characteristics, interests, lifestyle, choices, thoughts, feelings, questions, fashion choice, personality traits – NONE OF IT – will ever be one hundred percent the same as someone else. But that doesn’t stop me from upholding a conversation with a stranger.

 

I CHALLENGE YOU, TODAY!

I challenge you, to go out and replace every negative preconceived notion you have of someone else, and replace it with a genuine, positive thought about them.

When we go around labeling people and situations as “weird” and “dumb”, we are giving off our label as holding onto negative feelings.

In a World where eastern medicine, energy work, and burning sage is becoming more and more popular, people are starting to cut the negativity out of their lives in every form they can. Hey, we need all the help we can get. 

Push your comfort zone further. Connect with people. Explore differences.

CELEBRATE “WEIRDNESS” EVERYWHERE.