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Deep Breathing Challenge – Day #30

I didn’t give an update for my last two weeks, because I didn’t really have one. I have noticed a lot in my first two weeks of this challenge and there are also some realizations I have accepted through the process. It’s been a deep growth period for me and one I have truly enjoyed to the fullest.

I no longer get lightheaded,

when I deep breathe for yoga or meditation. Now that my body is used to spending, roughly half, of the time deep breathing naturally, it is better able to accommodate those activities where deep breathing is involved.


 

I can run farther, faster.

My strides are long as if I’m seven inches taller. My body takes off and flies through the scenery. Coming from a hometown in high altitude and thin air, it was already one thing to experience such thickness in the air here; being so close to sea level. Deep breathing has given me back my power to match my breathing to the environment. I used to compensate my breathing when I ran here, unsure of how exactly to measure my breaths. Sometimes I would breathe a lot of faster and sometimes just a little too shallow. I now understand the rhythm and flow to serve my body the best functioning for runs, jogs, and now… hikes!


I’ve stopped craving junk food as often.  

It was cookies every single night, chocolate of some sort every day, skipping meals and craving chocolate of any kind. Milk, carbs for all three meals, late night snacks, decrease in activity. The sluggish feeling became overwhelming. The clear thinking I have had from deeply breathing has not only filtered out unnecessary thoughts and slowed down my pace of speech, but it has given me clear and concise communication with the part of my brain that tells me when I am hungry and/or thirsty and what nutrients I actually need to fuel my body. I am listening intently as I gather what I need. The bag of Cadbury eggs in my fridge are not being touched [as often] as I thought they would be. They may just last until Winter…. don’t worry about the amount I bought. That’s not of importance. Fruits and veggies and water are once again, the biggest part of my diet. I crave cherries like I craved cookies. My breaths allow me to really feel my lungs expand and my heart beat at an appropriate rate. I feel the beating getting stronger everyday. My own heart is regaining it’s strength due to my breaths lengthening, inhibiting my mind to decide accurately what it is I need to put in my body to make this function last.


 

I have learned and accepted, that I can’t breathe deeply every single breath of every single moment of every day, but I can come back to deep breathing when I have stopped doing whatever it is that takes the focus of mind.

Such as conversations, being in the moment with friends, laughing, watching suspenseful movies, and even sleeping. Educating clients, reading a book. There are some things I do, where I just don’t think about my breathing. Although my breathing is no longer shallow like it used to naturally be, it is not as naturally deep as I had hoped. Although, can every breath be naturally so deep, comparable to meditation? Would we then be focused so hard on breathing that we actually get pulled away from being in the moment? That aspect was never my goal. Although, because I have spent every possible moment in these last thirty days, giving attention to my breath, I have learned that I am now spending half my time awake giving an in depth rise and fall of my rib cage, full expansion to my diaphragm, and a piece of mind to my body. I am less toxic on a cellular level, which in turn frees my mind, endocrine system, and skin of toxicity.

When I am engaged in something active, whether it be a soccer game, conversing with workmates and friends, indulged in books and movies, or exercising, although my breath is not actively opening up as when I am focused, it is opening much, much more, than it used to. My natural breath is now three times deeper than it used to be. I am calmer as a person in all aspects of my life. I am more confident without having nonsensical anxiety and worrisome thoughts. I take the time in all I do. I no longer rush my days. I no longer stir my brew of self-sabotage mixed with ingredients of time, fear, attention, and perfection.

 

This challenge has been one to remember forever. It has undoubtedly, answered the questions I could never have answered for me. It has forced me to look within not with shame, but acceptance and patience. It has allowed me to conquer aspects of myself I feared I would never be able to do. It has taught me that nothing about ourselves is permanent and we can improve our spirits in anyway we seem fit; all we have to do is commit.

I am twenty four mortal years old and am learning things I have not learned in all the others years my soul has walked this Earth. It’s humbling, it’s enlightening, and it’s moving. Thank you for allowing me to share this 30 day challenge experience with you. As always, I encourage you to venture on a 30 day challenge of your own! Big or small, physical, emotional, spiritual, or mental – challenging ourselves and pushing ourselves outside of our comfort zone is one of the best experiences we can give ourselves. We thrive, we grow, and even surprise ourselves along the way.

We are all strong and wonderful.
Challenge yourself, today.

Committing To the Leap of Faith

So you read Money VS Meaning and you got inspired. You jumped out of your chair with your fist in the air shouting, “This lady is right! My god, what am I still doing in this god forsaken job? My boss is a wanker and she’s right! I deserve better damnit and I am going to get it!”
You walk into the boss’ office and tell him/her that you quit. This job doesn’t make you happy and you’re going to take your employment elsewhere. Bewilderment. You’re feeling heated with passion. You have a smile so big on your face that your cheeks are cramping. Well, good for you for taking the first step!

You quit your dreadful work environment.
You get your last paycheck.

And a week goes by.


 

Now you’re asking yourself, “Oh my god. What the #*^% did I do? I quit my job. Where the &^%$ am I going to go?”
You start having quitter’s remorse. You’re crying and sweating and wondering if there is a way to take it all back. You eat nothing but ice cream in your bed for three days. You haven’t showered or even seen the light of day. You’re rotting.

WAIT A MINUTE!

I specifically did not advise you to rot away in your sheets with pint size ice cream containers falling off your bed filling up with your bedroom with the aroma of cream and body odor.

Fear is not the friend, FEAR IS THE FUEL! 

The best thing to do when you’re in this position to utilize your free time to pinpoint your next move. Spend some time outside with fresh air, listening to your thoughts. Let them come and go as they please and really grab hold of those juicy ones that you notice are coming again, and again. The more insignificant thoughts you let go of, the more vibrant those juicy, important, life guiding thoughts will be shown to you.

The beautiful thing about the Universe, is that we are made up of the same chemicals. Which means we are undeniably connected to the Earth, the Stars, the Planets, and each other. Our thoughts are like a transit radio that takes in limitless frequencies. What we think and the thoughts we choose to entertain, inevitably become our reality. So, the Universe can feel you yearning for a job. It can also, unfortunately, feel you sulking in your rotting bedroom being the only attendee to your pity party.

Now think about this: being that we’ve established the Universe can feel you. It knows what you want. It also knows your purpose. It knows your plan. It knows everything about you even if you don’t know. But do you think, the Universe is going to shift itself and go out of its starry way to help somebody who doesn’t even have the will to get up because all they can think about is their life stresses? Nah, probably not.

But your friend, who saw your excitement last week at work when you quit; the one to which you said, “Dude you gotta read this blog, it’s amazing” and he said “Wow! I’m with you man! I got dreams I’ve been putting off for too long!” – has already received four phone calls to interview with him. One is for the design school he’s been praying to get into and the other three calls are from Design Centers who are practically drooling over his resume.

Why? Because he took the blog posting as a sign; a confirmation; that he indeed, was in the wrong place. He believed in his strength and he believed in his personal power. He believed that by closing the door to an unsatisfying, unfulfilling job, it was practically a guarantee that many wonderful doors would open; honoring his self respect and his bravery. He used his last checks to pay the rest of the month in bills, patted himself on the back for savings ten percent of his paychecks, and after one night of celebration, he woke up the next day and spent eight hours working on his resume, cleaning out his social media, deep cleaning his house, and essentially “Spring Cleaning” through everything he owned. He took advantage of the opportunity to move forward. He understood that by moving forward, you can’t always take everything with you, physically, mentally, and emotionally. While you were stuffing ice cream down your esophagus, your friend was getting his dead ends trimmed up and a hot towel shave and getting fitted for one great suit. Because your friend also understands that every man should own at least one great suit. By using his time and money wisely, he is able to invest in himself and invest in his future, which broadens the opportunity openings.


 

You must trust the process.
The Universe always knows what it’s doing.


Call your friend, ask for help for the next step. It’s okay to ask for help and it’s okay to be afraid of the unknown and it’s okay to not know exactly what to do. That’s why we surround ourselves with like-people and people who lift us up and believe in us. These are called Family and Friends. Utilize them in a time of need and you will be surprised at the army of comodarie that stands behind you to cheer you on as you get out of your smelly, greasy slump and get through the shower. They will cheer you on as you take a big breath of renewed calm air and tell yourself:

Words to live by

Repeat this as many times as you want! That’s the beauty of it. The more you tell yourself something, the more you believe it to be true. You have spent three days sulking because of the negative words you have said to your own body. Can you imagine what you can do if you spent three days telling yourself “Actually, I CAN.” I will give you a hint, your friend is already doing it.

You’ve made the decision to take the leap of faith. Take a breath, now. Smile. Believe you can. The Universe will give it to you. Make yourself a beverage and a snack, open up your windows, and make your resume a knockout. This is your moment of re-birth. When you trust in the Universe you are giving yourself the opportunity to walk anywhere, create something new for the World, or do something courageous. So walk in the light and let the shadows of the stars guide you. Even your darkest moments are meant to happen. When you feel afraid or you feel stressed out about the next step, just close your eyes and take a moment of deep breathing. Ask the Universe for help and guidance and trust that you will receive the help and guidance.

After that, the best you can do is continue to bathe yourself, put your resume out there on every resource you can absolutely think of. Print it out and personally mail it to some of the biggest companies you’ve ever wanted to work with, send it to the people you’ve dreamt of working with the most. The most they can say is no, but the more you put yourself out there, the more that doors open up for you.


You quit the job you hated so you could obtain the job/career you wanted. Wanting doesn’t come without taking action. So go out and show the World that you will get what you want!


And hey, I’m proud of you.