IT’S HAPPENED!

Dare I Say, I’ve had an epiphany!

I had a profound moment and it was jolting. I thought to where I could announce this ah-ha moment, if not to my journal, and it took me a fair minute to realize what I have sitting right in front of me the whole time.

As I was using the Earth’s force of gravity to pull myself into a self-unwinding session, I was paying close attention to the emotions and imagery going through my head swiftly and I quickly realized I had to start writing something down before I lost gold once again. That tends to happen.

A trusted Guide was instructing me to come to view each of my passions as hobbies or career choices. I have a weakness in my creative mind for wanting to turn everything into a business. Totally annoying, I am sure, but constantly inspiring nevertheless! As my heart ached, letting go of a dream to make a business out of one of my hobbies, I rejoiced in the fact knowing I can still do it and have fun; I just no longer need to stress myself out about whether or not I am making a successful choice for myself.

I am checking things off left and right, and I come to a sudden freeze when I get to Planet Zynnia. My blog. My sweet, sweet blog that my beloved friend surprised me with the domain so many years ago. He still supports me in this blogging journey and couldn’t have chosen a better domain. He’s fantastic. Y’all should check him out actually, at devannielsen.com

I love this blog. It’s my precious gem. My diamond in the ruff. A place where you can come to and read brutal honesty from different categories. Reading words from an Author who intentionally encourages you to get uncomfortable with your bubble and think outside the box, challenging beliefs and raising questions in and around awareness. It feels invigorating to come here and be blown away at some of these articles. Others are softer… kinder… a bit more gentle on the awakening process. That’s what my site is all about.

TO EXPECT THE BEAUTIFUL AND UNEXPECTED.

I intend to put everything out there with Love. I don’t have time to tear anybody down with hatred, insults, or crude notions. That is not me, nor why I’m here. I will however, cuss and have my moments of outrage of insincerities if I need to. I haven’t published anything this year, because I’ve been struggling with writer’s block as well as feeling the pressure to not publish anything that may capture the attention of my LDS family or anyone else for that matter who isn’t prepared to read my blog, as well as not feeling support from friends and my boyfriend when it comes to reading my blog and participating in the comments or discussions. I will say things a lot of people aren’t ready to hear. And that is something I have been fighting with for a while.

I’ve come to realize, it’s all a bunch of bullshit in the end and if it makes me happy, I need to be okay with publishing something that may offend somebody else. Because after all, if I write what everyone wants to hear, I may never be satisfied. But if I am writing what I want to share with everybody, I am always happy I put it out there. These roads will twist and turn, but it is to thine own self, we be true! (Shout out to Shakespeare)

So Hi again. I am sorry for being a hidden asshole.
What I want to know from all of you is: What is something you have always loved to do, but no longer make the time for? Does it overwhelm you just by thinking about it? What made you stop and do you ever intend to pick it back up again? & most importantly, what is your happiness level with/without this hobby?

I look forward to chatting with you in the comment section below!

Peace of I,
Zynnia

Committing To the Leap of Faith

So you read Money VS Meaning and you got inspired. You jumped out of your chair with your fist in the air shouting, “This lady is right! My god, what am I still doing in this god forsaken job? My boss is a wanker and she’s right! I deserve better damnit and I am going to get it!”
You walk into the boss’ office and tell him/her that you quit. This job doesn’t make you happy and you’re going to take your employment elsewhere. Bewilderment. You’re feeling heated with passion. You have a smile so big on your face that your cheeks are cramping. Well, good for you for taking the first step!

You quit your dreadful work environment.
You get your last paycheck.

And a week goes by.


 

Now you’re asking yourself, “Oh my god. What the #*^% did I do? I quit my job. Where the &^%$ am I going to go?”
You start having quitter’s remorse. You’re crying and sweating and wondering if there is a way to take it all back. You eat nothing but ice cream in your bed for three days. You haven’t showered or even seen the light of day. You’re rotting.

WAIT A MINUTE!

I specifically did not advise you to rot away in your sheets with pint size ice cream containers falling off your bed filling up with your bedroom with the aroma of cream and body odor.

Fear is not the friend, FEAR IS THE FUEL! 

The best thing to do when you’re in this position to utilize your free time to pinpoint your next move. Spend some time outside with fresh air, listening to your thoughts. Let them come and go as they please and really grab hold of those juicy ones that you notice are coming again, and again. The more insignificant thoughts you let go of, the more vibrant those juicy, important, life guiding thoughts will be shown to you.

The beautiful thing about the Universe, is that we are made up of the same chemicals. Which means we are undeniably connected to the Earth, the Stars, the Planets, and each other. Our thoughts are like a transit radio that takes in limitless frequencies. What we think and the thoughts we choose to entertain, inevitably become our reality. So, the Universe can feel you yearning for a job. It can also, unfortunately, feel you sulking in your rotting bedroom being the only attendee to your pity party.

Now think about this: being that we’ve established the Universe can feel you. It knows what you want. It also knows your purpose. It knows your plan. It knows everything about you even if you don’t know. But do you think, the Universe is going to shift itself and go out of its starry way to help somebody who doesn’t even have the will to get up because all they can think about is their life stresses? Nah, probably not.

But your friend, who saw your excitement last week at work when you quit; the one to which you said, “Dude you gotta read this blog, it’s amazing” and he said “Wow! I’m with you man! I got dreams I’ve been putting off for too long!” – has already received four phone calls to interview with him. One is for the design school he’s been praying to get into and the other three calls are from Design Centers who are practically drooling over his resume.

Why? Because he took the blog posting as a sign; a confirmation; that he indeed, was in the wrong place. He believed in his strength and he believed in his personal power. He believed that by closing the door to an unsatisfying, unfulfilling job, it was practically a guarantee that many wonderful doors would open; honoring his self respect and his bravery. He used his last checks to pay the rest of the month in bills, patted himself on the back for savings ten percent of his paychecks, and after one night of celebration, he woke up the next day and spent eight hours working on his resume, cleaning out his social media, deep cleaning his house, and essentially “Spring Cleaning” through everything he owned. He took advantage of the opportunity to move forward. He understood that by moving forward, you can’t always take everything with you, physically, mentally, and emotionally. While you were stuffing ice cream down your esophagus, your friend was getting his dead ends trimmed up and a hot towel shave and getting fitted for one great suit. Because your friend also understands that every man should own at least one great suit. By using his time and money wisely, he is able to invest in himself and invest in his future, which broadens the opportunity openings.


 

You must trust the process.
The Universe always knows what it’s doing.


Call your friend, ask for help for the next step. It’s okay to ask for help and it’s okay to be afraid of the unknown and it’s okay to not know exactly what to do. That’s why we surround ourselves with like-people and people who lift us up and believe in us. These are called Family and Friends. Utilize them in a time of need and you will be surprised at the army of comodarie that stands behind you to cheer you on as you get out of your smelly, greasy slump and get through the shower. They will cheer you on as you take a big breath of renewed calm air and tell yourself:

Words to live by

Repeat this as many times as you want! That’s the beauty of it. The more you tell yourself something, the more you believe it to be true. You have spent three days sulking because of the negative words you have said to your own body. Can you imagine what you can do if you spent three days telling yourself “Actually, I CAN.” I will give you a hint, your friend is already doing it.

You’ve made the decision to take the leap of faith. Take a breath, now. Smile. Believe you can. The Universe will give it to you. Make yourself a beverage and a snack, open up your windows, and make your resume a knockout. This is your moment of re-birth. When you trust in the Universe you are giving yourself the opportunity to walk anywhere, create something new for the World, or do something courageous. So walk in the light and let the shadows of the stars guide you. Even your darkest moments are meant to happen. When you feel afraid or you feel stressed out about the next step, just close your eyes and take a moment of deep breathing. Ask the Universe for help and guidance and trust that you will receive the help and guidance.

After that, the best you can do is continue to bathe yourself, put your resume out there on every resource you can absolutely think of. Print it out and personally mail it to some of the biggest companies you’ve ever wanted to work with, send it to the people you’ve dreamt of working with the most. The most they can say is no, but the more you put yourself out there, the more that doors open up for you.


You quit the job you hated so you could obtain the job/career you wanted. Wanting doesn’t come without taking action. So go out and show the World that you will get what you want!


And hey, I’m proud of you.

Money VS Meaning

Let me just give it you frank:


Being disrespected by an employer for the sake of receiving a paycheck, is comparable to staying in an abusive relationship out of the fear of being alone.


There comes a moment in everyone’s lives, when you have to put your foot down and say, “I am not okay with being treated like this!” followed by walking away from the situation. Carrying your dignity in one hand and self honor in the other.

 

I quit my job yesterday. What I did, was what I love. Working with animals is part of my purpose. It’s what makes me happy among the other passions in my life I hold. Who I did it for, was not what I loved. Allowing somebody to mistreat you is telling yourself that you deserve to be treated that way. Allowing somebody to call you names for no reason, insult your personality, and abuse your loyalty is telling yourself that you don’t matter.

Granted, even our dream job will haves waves of turmoil or frustrations through the moments of sunshine. Every job gives you an opportunity to ask yourself, “Is this turmoil worth it all?” If the answer is yes, congratulations! You’re right where you need to be in your journey. If the answer is no, you may want to start looking up new employment that will give you equal income sustainability, if not more; and shiploads more happiness.

It’s okay to stick up for yourself, no matter who it is speaking to you in a way that you don’t like. It’s okay to set boundaries of respect and tell your boss or owner of the company, “You know, that’s not okay with me. Please don’t speak to me in that way. That’s a line crosser for me” Warning once is good. It shows that you know where you stand with yourself and you are unafraid to stand your ground. Believe it or not, people in authority like this characteristics among their staff. It shows them that they have strong-willed staff. Some employers become threatened by a strong personality, and if that’s the case, what are you doing working for someone who isn’t secure within themselves? Respect by way of Fear is not how you and a team gain success. It’s not okay to deplete your own body to the point of exhaustion for someone else’s personal goals over your own. It’s not okay to diminish your own core morals and beliefs so someone else can rise and you stay in the same place, if you’re lucky. And it is not okay to be treated outside of being a human being by another, regardless of it being your boss; even if that boss is family.

 

Making an income is extremely important and most of the time, we have our best interest at heart when we say “I am going to work here until I can go to _______”. Well, now you’ve been in the same position for over five years and you work with people you dislike and your boss treats you like crud. And while you’re sitting in your workplace, working to live, daydreaming about what you could be doing for work, about what you want to invent, about what you truly would rather be doing right now. Feel your heartbeat. Notice your happiness levels? You can feel like that every single day and make your daydream a reality by working on it, one step at a time. Fifteen minutes go by, and your boss’ presence snaps you back into reality. You shake your head and tell yourself “I don’t even know why I’m bothering. But one day, I will get out of here.”
I just have one question for you.


 

EXACTLY WHEN, were you going to believe in your dream again?


That’s the issue we’re facing globally. Fighting about hierarchies of class, money, and power. Saying “I can’t do this because I don’t make enough. (even though I work over 60 hours a week, and that’s including overtime).” Telling yourself that it’s too risky to quit your job and get started on your dream. Reminding yourself of all the ways your dream will probably fail. And worst of all, listening to the people who don’t even believe in you!

Excuse my French, but what kind of crap is that? 

Every employer needs employees; that goes without saying. If you choose to settle for anything less than your dream, I hope to God that you’re at least passionate about what you do.

Take for example, The Office, on TV. They live, love, and fight like a family. They’ve all worked together for so long that they remain employed because it’s comfortable, regardless of their everyday surroundings. It pays the bills. It’s consistent. Plus, Michael Scott is a pretty hilarious boss, although entirely irresponsible and a possible reason for high blood pressure. But, how many of them do you see get excited when they tell the camera man that they’re going to probably work for Dunder Mifflin Paper Company forever? One. Dwight K. Schrute. He loves paper. He loves sales. Other than Schrute’s Family Beet Farm, he lives to sell paper to his clients. He does anything for his boss and for his company because his heart is in it. Everyone else will end up miserable, but Dwight has so much passion and purpose for the paper industry, that Jim’s pranks are nearly flies across the windshield to him. They won’t ever be a big enough to quit.

How many of you see yourselves as Toby’s? Your boss has a blatant distaste for you and makes sure you know that every single day. Your boss takes you for granted and harasses you, belittles you from clock in to clock out, and lives to embarrass you and give you a hard time. You do nothing on the outside. Your insides boil up with every glare and every comment. WHY ARE YOU STILL WORKING THERE? Do you really believe you have no other option? THERE IS ALWAYS ANOTHER OPTION.

How many of you are Angelia’s? You go to work everyday hating everybody you work with so much that you don’t care what you say to them. You’re rude and it doesn’t ruin your sleeping habits. You have a yearning to bond with the people of your workplace because they’re not your cats, but you’re just not willing to accept that other people believe in different things than you. At least cats can’t really disagree with you. Nobody cares to be around you, because your unpredictable moods have produced a warning sign across your forehead.

Whether you’re the person who is bullied at work, or you’re the person bullying; those are gianormous signs that you are not in the right place of employment. You can do so much better for yourself and you can make such a better impact on this World.


Nobody’s purpose is to develop depression, anxiety, and self-loathing by working for a person or a company that does not serve you respect or happiness. Whether you chase your dreams or settle, always know and believe that not one person in this World is meant to dread their work. 


Questions:

  • What kind of attitude do you bring with you to work?
  • Does your attitude help you or hurt you on your journey to success?
  • Is your attitude and journey taking you to where you want to be?
  • Do you feel respected at your job?
  • Is where you are right now with your employment a job or a career?
  • If it’s a career, are you still passionate about it?
  • Have you established yourself among a healthy environment that pushes each other to be the best you can be?
  • If it’s a job, is it still giving you want you wanted?
  • Is it still a stepping stone towards your dream?
  • Have you been using your downtime to work on what it is you wish to create?
  • Why are you still waiting? Why are you still putting it off?
  • If you are miserable, how many times have you had the discussion with yourself?
  • If you’re miserable, why aren’t you doing anything about it? 


WE SPEND A THIRD OF OUR LIVES ASLEEP, A THIRD OF OUR LIVES WORKING, AND A THIRD OF OUR LIVES JUST BEING.

So get yourself one hell of a mattress, one hell of a work placement, and always bask in the moment. 


I wish you all, the utmost happiness in your lives.

It’s All About the Benjamins, Baby.

Money makes the world go round.
Money is in our daily lives, we spend it everyday, we worry about it, we celebrate it.

Everybody wants to make a lot of money.

But what happens when you realize money isn’t everything?

Freedom happens.
Worries lessen.
Relationships bond.

I currently work two jobs and go to school four nights a week.

My life consists of going to work at 6am and leaving there at 11am to commute to my second job. I stay there until six o’clock and immediately leave from there to go to school until 10:30 at night.

I ride my bike to trax and by the time I get home, unpack my day from my backpack, wash my face and shower and get in bed, it’s about… Midnight.

Sometimes I see my best friend after school and when that happens I don’t get to sleep until one in the morning.

That gives me three hours and fifteen minutes of sleep before I wake up at 4:15am and do it all over again.

I’m drained.

I have no more free time to myself. I’ve been stuck on a book for two weeks too long and I am having more troubles posting blogs. I’m constantly moving in the city or catching up on sleep.

All I have been able to think about is money. I need this job for my sanity, I need that job to get paid. I need money for the show, I need money to buy winter gear, I need money, money, money, money, money, money, money.

But I have to ask myself daily, “Is me getting paid worth it if I am just losing it?”
probably not.

So today, I quit my second job. I have replaced beautiful and sunny afternoons filled with friends, coffee, books, bike rides, and laughter – for an afternoon of hot, suffocating sun blaring straight in my line of sight with three managers who pick on me, treat me like a slave, and threaten my job because I feel the need to see a doctor. I have negativity talking passed me as they walk by. It’s something I don’t have the tolerance to surround myself with.

Sometimes, making a lot of money isn’t worth it if you lose yourself in the process.

Today, I have a piece of my happiness back. I have a piece of my freedom. I have my hobbies, my interests, and my passions to indulge in. I have more time to clean, think, laugh, joke, and be myself. I have more time to discover who I am and the path I lead. I have more time for homework and shopping and cooking with my best friend.

Today, I get my life back. Because I know money can’t tie me down. Money isn’t bribe-worthy in this case. Money doesn’t own me.

 

 

Are you stuck in a rut? Are you unsatisfied with the way your job or career is going? Are you telling yourself it needs to change? How long will you wait before you do it? 

If what you have, isn’t making you happy, I encourage you to use this moment NOW to make your dreams a reality.