It’s All About the Benjamins, Baby.

Money makes the world go round.
Money is in our daily lives, we spend it everyday, we worry about it, we celebrate it.

Everybody wants to make a lot of money.

But what happens when you realize money isn’t everything?

Freedom happens.
Worries lessen.
Relationships bond.

I currently work two jobs and go to school four nights a week.

My life consists of going to work at 6am and leaving there at 11am to commute to my second job. I stay there until six o’clock and immediately leave from there to go to school until 10:30 at night.

I ride my bike to trax and by the time I get home, unpack my day from my backpack, wash my face and shower and get in bed, it’s about… Midnight.

Sometimes I see my best friend after school and when that happens I don’t get to sleep until one in the morning.

That gives me three hours and fifteen minutes of sleep before I wake up at 4:15am and do it all over again.

I’m drained.

I have no more free time to myself. I’ve been stuck on a book for two weeks too long and I am having more troubles posting blogs. I’m constantly moving in the city or catching up on sleep.

All I have been able to think about is money. I need this job for my sanity, I need that job to get paid. I need money for the show, I need money to buy winter gear, I need money, money, money, money, money, money, money.

But I have to ask myself daily, “Is me getting paid worth it if I am just losing it?”
probably not.

So today, I quit my second job. I have replaced beautiful and sunny afternoons filled with friends, coffee, books, bike rides, and laughter – for an afternoon of hot, suffocating sun blaring straight in my line of sight with three managers who pick on me, treat me like a slave, and threaten my job because I feel the need to see a doctor. I have negativity talking passed me as they walk by. It’s something I don’t have the tolerance to surround myself with.

Sometimes, making a lot of money isn’t worth it if you lose yourself in the process.

Today, I have a piece of my happiness back. I have a piece of my freedom. I have my hobbies, my interests, and my passions to indulge in. I have more time to clean, think, laugh, joke, and be myself. I have more time to discover who I am and the path I lead. I have more time for homework and shopping and cooking with my best friend.

Today, I get my life back. Because I know money can’t tie me down. Money isn’t bribe-worthy in this case. Money doesn’t own me.

 

 

Are you stuck in a rut? Are you unsatisfied with the way your job or career is going? Are you telling yourself it needs to change? How long will you wait before you do it? 

If what you have, isn’t making you happy, I encourage you to use this moment NOW to make your dreams a reality.

2 comments
zacky
zacky

I dig your blog ash! Maybe someday I can get my freedom back too : ) keep up the writing!!

Michael
Michael

You've nailed the Benjamin on the head. Unfortunately, money isn't everything, but it makes everything easier. There is always a balancing act between how much of your self to sell for money (whether that's literally or figuratively, it doesn't matter much), and how much of yourself to refuse to sell. I am in a different situation, in that I'm salaried, so, it doesn't matter if I work 42 or 52 or 62 hours a week, the pay is the same. For me, I have to decide, after I reach 40 hours a week, how much more and I willing to give up of my "me" time to satisfy the demands of my job? I usually settle at about 46.5 hours a week. Believe me, I could work much more than that, but not at the expense of giving up the things I need to do for a feeling of a good quality of life, freedom of expression, and just plain battery recharging. So, as long as it doesn't put you in a huge financial bind, I say congratulations for telling the man to take his Benjamins and plant them deeply in somewhere dark and fertile. It's a tough decision, for sure, but happiness has no price. -M