April 2011

Realization

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”
Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

 

 

I have to agree with this. I thought I would feel different about him. I’ve always said he was my soulmate and I’ve always said I was never in love with him. And I’m not. He is the first person I have been able to control my emotions with and just feel and enjoy. To know I could love without feeling the needing or longing of another soul. I love him and care about him, but I’m not in love with him. I always wondered why that was.

“Shouldn’t I feel love?” Love is not the same as in love for me apparently. We took a test on what our primary love languages are. Our first was the same and our other ones are different.
So after seeing him, I realized. He is my soulmate for life, yes, NOT the one I’m in love with. And I am okay with that and I accept that. I know it sounds completely bonkers to some people. I’m okay with open comments and discussions, I think it’s interesting to see so many views on one set topic. I feel lucky I got to have this. I got my chance to meet someone who has changed my life in every way and shape possible. Someone who I could hold no comparison to anyone else in my lifetime. He remains in my thoughts and prayers every single day and I will no doubt ever forget him or the lessons he has taught me. He is truly an angel and I am blessed to have met the very soulmate Gilbert explains so boldy.